Help, I think I might be insane

[cwish001]

This is going to be really hard for me to relate I have never told anybody about this but things seem to be getting worse. I don't live in this world most of the time. I create other worlds in my mind and spend most of my time in them. I have lot of crazy experiences and have been in the Navy and now in school nearing graduation. I am a honors student in Business with a near 4.0 GPA but I just can't stand living in this world. I am obsessed with starting a business, and one of my world is my success world where I live the business ideas I have and am very successful. I have another world that I live in, in which I am part of a military commander from another galaxy toward the end of the universe doing a mission on this planet. That world is more toward entertainment while the other one is a staging and forward think world. In both worlds I am very savvy, handsome, popular, successful, and a great speaker and communicator. In this world I am ridiculously shy, shudder, have few friends. I get the worlds confused and I think I have same traits I have in the other worlds and am quickly disappointed when reality sets in. In order to travel to the other worlds I have to walk or do some type of moving activity. I walk or hike trails constantly, probably more than 15 miles daily. I am not here when I am walking but completely in other worlds. One problem is that I walk some much I am walking at all hours even 2,3,4 AM. People, mostly drunk people, have been harassing me while I am on my walks and have thrown sodas, beer, whatever at me and have taken the time to yell at me and call me names like "Crazy". I hate this some much, I am not walking in the middle of the street but on campus, on sidewalks, or on the curb I am not harming anyone. The bad thing is I have created a new world in which I carry around a gun with a silencer and when ever somebody comes had harasses me I open up fire on them and kill them all. It is the right thing to do, people should yell at strangers. In this world I see myself as a Robin Hood of sorts. These worlds are very vivid and very real when I am in them. The scifi one is for entertainment but the Business one is what I use for actual planning and take actions based on events in that world. I have been dx with Bipolar and I often feel that things are working against me and that everyone is laughing or talking about me. I don't know if there is more than bipolar going on and if I am going to eventually completely leave this world behind or even how dangerous I am to other people. I really fear sometimes that I might end up as a serial killer. I am afraid to tell the therapist or Dr. because I have alot going on in school with a upcomming graduation, opening a franchise, ect and I am afraid I will need to be locked up. I just want to know if this is common and benign or if this is a serious problem.

[sophiaXIV]

Im sorry that you are feeling this way. You need to see a doctor, whether your GP or a psychiatrist.

[Anasthasia]

Sounds similar like me in some ways. But I don't know if I am Bipolar or not, but I am definitely an Aspie. I should see a psychiatrist to ask her questions about it, and I advise you to do the same. Ask your doctor about your problems and how could you help yourself things to get better.

Wish you luck!

Sounds similar to what I had.... get to the doctor quick. Its incredible what modern medicine can do for you nowadays. I went crazy for approx. 10 years and did alot of weights and running. Had similar thing as you plus some far out manic laughter. Luckily the sedatives kicked in and I now feel as right as rain and stress levels are seriously reduced.